Unconditional love

I am gonna be so so dead in office later. Tried sleeping at 3am, tossed and turned like no one's business till 6+ in the morning. I just couldn't sleep, the cause might be the wine. Hmm, come to think of it...When was the last time I woke up so early?


My clear mind set me thinking about the conversation I had with a fren. What is it that I want in my life? Who are the people I allow myself to be close with? What types of friends are influencing your life? He reminded me that 26 years already gone, I ain't that young anymore. Shouldn't I be thinking what I really want in my life now and in the future? I am giving it some thoughts.


I truly cherish every friendship that comes along the way, each brings different experiences and feelings. But I was pretty upset with an extremely close friend of mine, her attitude towards our friendship. Why am I disturb by this? When this wasn't an issue to her at all. May be I have become the substitute to her nice boyfriend, just being too nice to her (as commented by a fren). I know I will always be there for her when she needs me, but will it be the same if I need her. May be not. She is a Channel 5 person and I cannot do anything about that.


I realised I cannot change her to be someone she is not but to accept her as she is. This is what unconditional love is all about. :)

Which are you?

I am still in the midst of blog site discovery. What prompted me to stop blogging on my Friendster? I wanted a change. Simple answer it seems after much considerations.


This theory of change also applies to Life as well. Torturous it would be if one has to live life constantly the same. Same routines, same clothes, same food, same movie, same music, to even the slightest things like shower gels, perfume, etc.


Varieties; that's what people need now but they have gotten all in the wrong places. I would have to emphasise that this theory is not meant for relationships. Several people I know have the 'keeping options open' when they have committed themselves to their partners. But are their partners aware of? No. Some have even termed that their partners are doing the same as well. Then a rethought is required. Is faithfulness or fun you are looking for?


Saddening to know people who see relationships like materials. Always tempted to change new ones; old shoes go as new trendy ones enter. Temptation is always there, if one cannot resist it, then in the first place don't commit. An advice to the non-committal people, do not play with people's feelings and mislead them on. If you are uncertain, don't even think about it. You would only hurt those who feel for you.


I have learnt from B.X. the two different type of people, channel 5 and channel 8. Channel 5 people are those who put themselves and their conveniences first before anyone; egocentric, individualistic, narrow people. Channel 8 people are those who put others first before themselves; altruistic, giving, humble people. So which are you?