Rose

I have been through so much *hit, just so tired. I know everyone has their own set of problems, mine's just another set. Some time ago, someone said to me, "Rulin, why do you keep smiling and encouraging others when inside is silently killing you bit by bit? Why do you laugh when you are not happy? Why do you portrait so jovial when inside you are not? Why do you keep everything to yourself? Why do you mask yourself?" Well, I don't know. May be it's just me.

Why let others be trouble with my problems? It seems that "I don't know" is my answer to many questions right now. Although I wish for someone who can really understand me better than myself. Eventually, I just don't wish that my problems will turn to someone else's burdens.

Don't you think a smile impact more than tears of sadness? Don't you think a happy face seem more beautiful than a sorrowful face? I smile, I laugh, I giggle because I choose to keep myself sane. I still prefer the jovial Rulin than the tearful Rulin. So don't worry, I am still happy somewhere inside me. :) Anyway, thank you for allowing me to relieve by my whinings.

Surin jiejie, thank you for the lovely rose. Most importantly, thank you for your presence.


The man behind the rose


A smile brightens a day!


Two smiles brighten a week!